June 2021 – I am embarrassed to admit this, but I doubted my team.

Back in January, about two weeks prior to the launch of a client’s virtual conference, we had a team production meeting where I panicked a bit.

To be fair, this event had pivoted from an in-person event to a hybrid event to a virtual event with a 10-person production team in a studio to a virtual event with the production team all working remotely. There had been so many twists and turns over the course of 6 months that I had lost track of how many times I had to re-do the project plan. All these changes and obstacles were fueling my self-doubt.

At one point during our team meeting, I posed this question:

“Guys – Do we really have this thing under control?”

To their credit, their response was a resounding YES.

However, it was really Dave who talked me off the ledge (a role reversal, which, I am very much thankful for). He said something like this:

“Krista – every time I log into the platform, I surprise myself with how much I know. We’ve got this.”

I’m sharing this moment of self-doubt because, as my team predicted, the event was a home run!  The client was thrilled, the event attendees loved the content and the technology, and everything ran smooth as butter on the InEvent platform.

The icing on the cake was a request from the InEvent marketing team to feature iSPARK and our client’s event as a case study! WATCH IT HERE.

All this to say, my moment of uncertainty (and stress) was all for nothing.

Van Gogh Self Portrait

Van Gogh is reported to have said this:

“If you hear a voice within you say ‘You cannot paint,’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”

That pre-event production meeting is not my proudest moment as a leader, but one that I will reflect on if that little voice of uncertainty ever dares to creep in again.

My new mantra is: When in doubt, paint it out ?